1. I have to buy my own peanut butter now. 12 jars at a time.
2. I have to find a new financial adviser. That I might actually have to pay.
3. Waking up is terrible. My brain goes: “It’s light out. Hi kitties. What time is it? Oh, my grandpa died. That really sucks.”
4. Sneaky tears. I saw a bag of Brazil Nuts in the store and lost it. His handwriting is suddenly on all of my possessions, and his picture on all of my walls.
5. Despite how I am about weddings, I always kinda thought he would walk me down the aisle.
6. I needed directions yesterday and it took three people to answer my question. Thus taking three people to fill Papa’s shoes.
7. Yesterday my grandma says to me, ‘You can still call and talk about sports. I always tried to keep up with you two.’ I will never recover from that.
8. He was the only man in my family to take any interest in me and to take me seriously.
9. He was the only person to be constantly impressed by all the parties I went to. Like two a month.
10. My kids will never get to hear the good morning song sung by the inventor of the good morning song. “Good morning! Good morning! It’s time to rise and shine! Good morning! Good morning! It’s time to rise and shine!” And being annoyed and giggling at the same time.

















I’m so sorry to hear about your grandpa passing. I know it’s hard; I guess the only thing you can do is imagine that he’s in a better place and at the very least not in the pain he was in before. All my best wishes during this difficult time.
Comment by Zaynab — January 30, 2010 @ 12:51 pm
Oh Allyson, I am so sorry to hear about your grandpa!!! My heart goes out to you, truly. Try to take it easy on yourself and make time to grieve. He will forever live in your heart and that is what is important. Take it easy my friend… you are in my thoughts.
Comment by Julie — January 30, 2010 @ 2:19 pm
I’m so so sorry! I lost my Grandpa in May. I know how tough it is. My prayers are with you and your family!
Comment by Kristin — January 30, 2010 @ 2:38 pm
Oh, Allyson. I’m so sorry for your loss. Give me a call if you need to talk. *hugs* I would like to inundate you with cookies, beer, knitting, and kittens – let me know when you’re feeling up for it.
Comment by Gil — January 30, 2010 @ 5:37 pm
ohhhh Allyson…gosh I am so so sorry. I am so happy though that you shared what your grandpa was like! It made me smile so big for you that you had such a special man in your life! relish in that.
big big hugs.
sending you my best!
xo
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Comment by Cindy — January 31, 2010 @ 1:17 am
sorry about your loss….
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Comment by Lynn @ The Actors Diet — February 1, 2010 @ 10:02 pm
oh, so sad to hear about your loss. But how wonderful that you had such an amazing grandpa.
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Comment by Julie — February 2, 2010 @ 11:48 am
I’m just catching up on blogs and I’m so sorry to read about your grandpa
If it’s any consolation, this was a beautiful post. I’m sure he’s reading it somewhere and very happy about all the nice things you have to say
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Comment by Anne P — February 10, 2010 @ 5:04 pm